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05 May 2015 @ 07:45 pm
Bad Trash  
Not much festivity or joy here - I took an overdose of lorazepam on Monday. I'm home from hospital, had blood tests and here I am now with no fucking idea what I'm doing.

I just feel like there's this innate, semi-automonous drive to crash everything I've worked so hard for, for so long. Apparently you sometimes have to tear everything down.
strong_delicatestrong_delicate on May 5th, 2015 09:54 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry love!
Ryan: Aphrodite IVcause_catyljan on May 6th, 2015 06:44 pm (UTC)
Thank you.
Airi Face Killastar_5_meo on May 6th, 2015 02:45 am (UTC)
Glad you're ok though!
Ryan: Boreas (1903)cause_catyljan on May 6th, 2015 06:47 pm (UTC)
I'm not sure ok is quite right, but thank you...
McKavianmckavian on May 6th, 2015 04:40 am (UTC)
Being that my best friends son died of a heroin overdose yesterday morning, this is something to take quite seriously.

What can I do to help?
Ryan: Daydream Anonymouscause_catyljan on May 6th, 2015 06:51 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry, you all have my best wishes.

I just need people to talk to. Thanks.
McKavianmckavian on May 6th, 2015 06:58 pm (UTC)
I'm here now. So, talk.
Ryan: pic#124962629cause_catyljan on May 6th, 2015 07:39 pm (UTC)
I don't really have much to say. I'm confused. I'm not miserable. I feel strong and powerful. I don't feel proud or happy about what's been happening, but I don't feel I did anything wrong. There's no shame.